Living for the Red Part?

If you follow me on Twitter or FaceBook, you know I've spent the last 5 days in the PACU waiting room of University Hospital in Augusta, GA. My father-in-law had a valve replaced and a stint placed in his aorta on Thursday. Complications from the surgery caused him to bleed all day Thursday; bleeding that could not be controlled by medication. As a result, around 11 pm Thursday he was wheeled back into the operating room so the doctors could surgically repair the bleed.

Fortunately, God's hand guided the surgeon and the bleeding was quickly controlled. Unfortunately, it delayed dad-in-law's recovery to such an extent he was not removed from the ventilator until Sunday late morning.

Sitting in a waiting room isn't much fun. Sitting in the same waiting room for 5 days straight is even less fun. I've had the opportunity to watch a lot of YouTube videos, and was really impressed with this Francis Chan video about life; "Living Eternally."

Chan really nails down what Christian's have missed in the modern age. In another Francis Chan video, he talked about how modern American Christianity has become, "add a little Jesus to your life" as opposed to the call of Jesus in Matthew 16:24-27 (The Message)

²⁴Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Those who want to come with me must say no to the things they want, pick up their crosses, and follow me. ²⁵Those who want to save their lives will lose them. But those who lose their lives for me will find them. ²⁶What good will it do for people to win the whole world and lose their lives? Or what will a person give in exchange for life? ²⁷The Son of Man will come with his angels in his Father’s glory. Then he will pay back each person based on what that person has done.

Jesus made it clear: we are not to live for today, we are to live today realizing our choices will impact eternity. I believe Chan's message is dead accurate to Jesus' teaching.

Francis Chan also references Paul's words from Philippians 3:10-16 (The Message)

^10-11I gave up all that inferior stuff so I could know Christ personally, experience his resurrection power, be a partner in his suffering, and go all the way with him to death itself. If there was any way to get in on the resurrection from the dead, I wanted to do it.

^12-14I'm not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don't get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I've got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I'm off and running, and I'm not turning back.

^15-16So let's keep focused on that goal, those of us who want everything God has for us. If any of you have something else in mind, something less than total commitment, God will clear your blurred vision—you'll see it yet! Now that we're on the right track, let's stay on it.

Paul understood our life is temporary here on earth, but permanent beyond our time on earth. Paul knew what he said and did here in life affected his eternity. This from the man who called himself "least" among the followers of Christ.

I too get caught up in the "red part" as Francis Chan demonstrated in his video. Far too often my thoughts are of my next project, how I will pay my bills, where my next meal will be, or just too focused on all the inferior stuff. Far too often I'm more focused on myself than the world around me; a world God has commanded me to love and serve. I need to keep my focus strong, I need to reunite with the goals of God and then live each day striving to achieve them.

Can you imagine what our world would look like if everyone who claims the name of Christ also followed this same path? I have to admit, that is a world I'd truly enjoy living in. Wouldn't you?

Waiting is Hard to Do

So my lovely bride and I made the drive from Lexington, KY to Augusta, GA last night ... Her father is having heart surgery today, so we came down to be here for that major event. Her brother from Michigan and his wife met up with us in Lexington, so we could all carpool down.

After arriving at 1 am this morning, we were awakened by my bride's parents at 4:30 as they were getting ready to head to the hospital for pre-op. We then lay back down for another hour prior to getting ready and heading out the door shortly after 7 am ... We arrived at the hospital in time to have a prayer session with my bride's father, mother, brother, sister-in-love, my bride, and me ... Her dad was then given his first round of sedation meds and rolled down the hall at 8:20 for surgery.

We headed to the surgical waiting area and found some seats to get settled in for the next 6 hours (the scheduled time for the surgery) ... Unfortunately, a few minutes later, a nurse came in and said a Cath Lab emergency had pushed our surgery back at least 4 hours. Oh, waiting is hard to do!

It seems to me we are often in "wait" mode ... Waiting on a paycheck so we can pay some bills. Waiting on God's answer to our "urgent" prayer request. Waiting on approval of that loan, that college application, that job promotion. "Hurry up and wait" seems to be the American model.

I'm not sure what has caused this "epidemic" of waiting ... Maybe in our effort to make life easier, we've become so successful at the "instant gratification lifestyle" we are actually moving faster than God intended. Maybe the waiting is God's way to show us He remains in control, and all our best plans are futile if He isn't included.

Regardless of the why, I sit here in a hospital waiting room this morning, waiting on another patient's surgery to finish so my father-in-law can once again be wheeled back for his procedure. And after that occurs, we will continue to wait the 4 to 6 hours it will take for his surgical procedure. And if that isn't enough, we will then wait the hour or more while he is in recovery, waking up enough the staff will let us go back and see him.

So here I sit ... Waiting is hard to do !!

Memorial Day 2011

I have recently had the privilege of rereading the Gettysburg Address by President Lincoln. It is fitting to reflect on this address on Memorial Day.

We in America have unprecedented freedoms! However, those freedoms did not come freely. It is because of those who "gave the last full measure of devotion" we can worship any way we choose, enjoy freedom of the press and freedom to assemble, and enjoy the freedom to overthrow our government every two years if necessary.

Today, as you enjoy a day off work, as you fire up your grill, as you find the next, great sale; remember freedom isn't free. It is only yours to enjoy today because of those brave men and women, living and dead, who struggled so you may be free.

The Gettysburg Address:

Four score and seven years ago our fathers brought forth on this continent, a new nation, conceived in Liberty, and dedicated to the proposition that all men are created equal.

Now we are engaged in a great civil war, testing whether that nation, or any nation so conceived and so dedicated, can long endure. We are met on a great battle-field of that war. We have come to dedicate a portion of that field, as a final resting place for those who here gave their lives that that nation might live. It is altogether fitting and proper that we should do this.

But, in a larger sense, we can not dedicate -- we can not consecrate -- we can not hallow -- this ground. The brave men, living and dead, who struggled here, have consecrated it, far above our poor power to add or detract. The world will little note, nor long remember what we say here, but it can never forget what they did here. It is for us the living, rather, to be dedicated here to the unfinished work which they who fought here have thus far so nobly advanced. It is rather for us to be here dedicated to the great task remaining before us -- that from these honored dead we take increased devotion to that cause for which they gave the last full measure of devotion -- that we here highly resolve that these dead shall not have died in vain -- that this nation, under God, shall have a new birth of freedom -- and that government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the earth.

Happy Memorial Day America !!

Learnings from God

It's been nearly eight months since I've posted, in part due to work, but also in part due to circumstances. It has been a tough eight months.

After losing both cars in the same week last fall (see my previous post, "Tough Week"), we limped by on the one 1996 Corolla we'd purchased for cash. While I was flying from job to job, it was rather easy to be a one car family. However, there were a number of jobs in Illinois, Ohio, and Kentucky where I needed to drive. In most cases, we wound up renting a car so I could get to and from work.

Finally, after six months of renting cars and paying money simply so I could get to work, I'd had enough. I decided it would be better to once again take on a car payment as opposed to continuing to spend on average $300 per month for rental cars. At least we'd be building towards our future by paying on a car we would eventually own.

It all came to critical mass when I would spend three weeks on the road, one in Illinois and two in Ohio. Because this trip fell near Derby weekend, rental cars were nearly three times their normal rate on my preferred Internet sites. It would cost nearly $1,000 for a three week rental!

Once again I began searching Craigslist and Auto Trader looking for a solution. We could buy anther cash car and hope it would be sufficient for my transportation needs. Or we could purchase a slightly more expensive car, say in the $10,000 range, and get a few good years out of the vehicle. With the small down payment we had, we would wind up making $250 a month in payments.

I found a couple of options and began driving around town looking at the possibilities. While our credit has taken a hit in the past several years, we were able to get financing from some national banks. Unfortunately, the banks were not willing to finance the $10,000 vehicles we desired to purchase. It seems a bank is willing to loan more money to a higher risk client because the vehicle has a better collateral rating as opposed to lending less for an older, higher mileage vehicle.

So after visiting several dealers, we wound up in Paris, Kentucky at a small town dealership. Once again we were moved from the $10,000 2002 vehicle to the $18,000 2007 vehicle. However, something was different this time. My wife and I actually listened to the sales pitch, and wound up signing a contract even though the monthly payment was nearly $100 more than we'd agreed upon prior to starting the search. We were now the proud owners of a 2007 Chevy Silverado Extended Cab truck!

I drove the truck to my first jobsite in Illinois and it was fantastic. I usually get very stiff when on a long road trip, but this truck was so comfortable, even after a 250 mile ride, I was still comfortable. It was just as nice the following week when I drove 350 miles into northeastern Ohio for my next project.

It was during that week I received a call from the dealership. The bank had denied the loan after further looking into our financials. As two self-employed people, we had given the dealership copies of our tax returns and the bank had taken a closer look. The income stated on the tax returns did not provide them with sufficient debt to income ratio. We had to find alternate financing or return the truck. Because I was in Ohio for two weeks, I told the dealership I would not be able to return the truck for another week.

A part of the story you will know if you follow this blog is back in January 2006 my wife and I committed to no more debt. We would pay off our existing debt as quickly as possible and not amass any new debt. Ever since September of 2008 when we paid off our Lexus, we had carried no auto debt. Even the three cars we purchased in 2010 were cash cars; two from the insurance settlement on the Lexus and one from income earned.

We now had decided it was acceptable to have debt, as opposed to continuing to spend money on rental cars, provided the debt was offset by the rental expense. It makes sense logically, even financially, but the no debt promise was not only to ourselves, it was to God. It seems that despite our human justification for taking on debt, God had other plans. It was a tough lesson to learn.

So on the Monday after my return, I once again was on Craigslist and Auto Trader looking for cash vehicles. Fortunately, another paycheck had come into our bank account, we would be able to pay cash for something, just not something as great as the truck we were about to return.

In the end, we would up giving the truck back to the dealership, handing them an additional check, and driving off in a 1999 Ford Explorer. I've had the Explorer for a week now, driven it to one Kentucky jobsite as well as around town. It isn't as comfortable as the Silverado, it doesn't get as good of gas mileage as the Silverado, and it doesn't look as nice as the Silverado; but it has no debt.

God has shown Himself to be faithful once again. Did we get the vehicle of our dreams? No! But in the three weeks we owned the Silverado, we only paid for gas and I was able to get to the jobsite in comfort. It was a bridge, in lieu of a rental car, to get us to the place we had the cash for the Explorer. God did show up and bless us, even though we lost a great truck!

Sometimes we don't see the full picture. Sometimes, however, God gives us just enough of a glimpse to let us know He is faithful, He is generous, He has our best interests in mind. Even if it doesn't seem that way in the midst of the moment, God is looking out for us!